a reminder from the PAST...

Tadi aku majuk ngan Muncet.

Then, dia antar SMS:

"Xde maksd pun nk ckp mcm 2. gurau ksng ja.."

Time tu aku tengah marah. So, tak pasal-pasal dia kena hambur ngan aku. Agaknya teruk jugak dia kena.

Lepas tu, aku lepak-lepak jap dlm ofis. Siap baring-baring lagi. Then, entah macam mana aku teringat dengan perasaan yang aku rasa taun lepas. Aku baring di sofa yang sama tetapi dengan perasaan yang berbeza.

Time tu, aku ingat lagi yang aku sedih tahap badak dan tak siapa tahu yang aku menangis sorang-sorang. Dan aku menangis sebab aku teringat dekat seseorang yang dah lama pergi meninggalkan aku.

Dia yang takkan kembali dan aku hanya dapat pujuk hati dengan menangis sorang-sorang. Masa tu, aku berpikir kenapa kami jadi macam tu.

Dan jawapan yang aku dapat ialah...












...aku kuat sangat merajuk dan cepat terasa.


Dan tadi, baru aku sedar silap aku.

Muncet hanya nak bergurau tapi aku yang amek kesah lebih. Dia pun dah mintak maaf tapi aku yang degil. Ikutkan sangat hati...


Terus aku call dia dan cakap,

"Awak, saya minta maaf sangat."

Dia ckp 'ok' tapi dengan nada yang nak tak nak. Mungkin bengang dia sebab aku wat perangai tak hilang lagi. Takpelah, memang salah aku. Dia nak marah, marahlah. Aku memang patut kena marah pun.



Sekali lagi aku nak cakap kat sini...

"Awak, saya mintak maaf sangat-sangat. Saya tahu saya yang salah. Saya yang mcm budak-budak. Saya sayangkan awak dan tak sanggup kehilangan awak. Harap awak maafkan saya. Please... Please.. Please..."

the SMS

Sebenarnya, aku teragak-agak nak cite perkara ni.
Lagipun, bukan perkara penting pun.
Tapi perkara ni buat aku terpikir.

Dua hari lepas, aku dapat satu SMS:

"Tegur sy jika sy mulai sombong, tegur sy jika sy mulai angkuh, tegur sy jika sy mulai slh krn sy msh sgt perlu sahabat sprti kamu, ari ini, esok & selamanya. SELAMAT HARI PERSAHABATAN. Kirim ini kepada semua teman yang kamu sayangi. (Jika sy trmasuk, tlg kirim balik ye..) Lihat brp banyak kamu dpt balasan. Kalu lebih dpd 7 kamu patut disayangi... Krna kamu adlh slh sorg yg terbaik."

Terus jari aku taip:

"Sape ni?"

Tak lama, aku dapat reply.

"Ni n***r la. Tnya kabar ko."

Dapat tau je, trus aku reply:

"N***r, ang delete ja no aku dpd hp ang. Kesah aku ngan ang dah lama berlalu. Bukan aku takmo kawan ngan ang tapi aku rasa kta xkan dpt balik mcm dulu. Aku rasa ang pun dh hepy ngan org lain. Hargailah dia..."

Yup, memang aku ngan ko takkan dapat balik ke zaman yang dulu sebab aku dah lama tinggalkan zaman tersebut.
Aku dah bergerak jauh daripada zaman tu...
Cuma aku heran kenape ko still nak datang dalam hidup aku.
Apa yang aku buat sampai ko takmo nak lepas aku?


Apapun, terima kasih pada ko kerana disebabkan ko, aku belajar hargai orang yang sayang aku.
Bukan macam ko yang hanya nak main-mainkan hati aku.
Dan aku harap ko belajarlah untuk tak berkira dengan orang yang ko sayang.
Ubah-ubahlah perangai tu...
Duit boleh carik tapi sahabat sejati payah nak dapat.
Aku tak rugi ape tak kawan ngan ko sebab aku happy sekarang.

Lagi satu, tak payahlah mengungkit. Kalo ko betol-betol sahabat yang baik, ko takkan ungkit segala apa yang ko buat kat aku.
Kalo aku mengungkit pe yang aku buat kat ko, gerenti ko terkedu.

Pesan aku, jangan contact aku dah. Tu je...

Thanks...

my DAY..

Seriously, I never feel like this ever since I work here.

But today, I feel that all these works seem to be a great burden to me.

A never ending rain of works.

Gosh!!!

The thing that I hate the most is when in the middle of completing something, a nuisance came and asked you to do this and that.

I feel like slapping that person.

I wish I could do it though.






I feel like smoking.

JOM!!!

dedicated to my M.U.N.C.E.T.

"Crash And Burn"

When you feel all alone
And the world has turned its back on you
Give me a moment please to tame your wild wild heart
I know you feel like the walls are closing in on you
It's hard to find relief and people can be so cold
When darkness is upon your door and you feel like you can't take anymore

Let me be the one you call
If you jump I'll break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
If you need to fall apart
I can mend a broken heart
If you need to crash then crash and burn
You're not alone

When you feel all alone
And a loyal friend is hard to find
You're caught in a one way street
With the monsters in your head
When hopes and dreams are far away and
You feel like you can't face the day

Let me be the one you call
If you jump I'll break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
If you need to fall apart
I can mend a broken heart
If you need to crash then crash and burn
You're not alone

'Cause there has always been heartache and pain
And when it's over you'll breathe again
You'll breath again

When you feel all alone
And the world has turned its back on you
Give me a moment please
To tame your wild wild heart

Let me be the one you call
If you jump I'll break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
If you need to fall apart
I can mend a broken heart
If you need to crash then crash and burn
You're not alone

to my M.U.N.C.E.T.

I know you that you are going through a lot of problems in your life now.

But keep in mind that I would never let you go through those things alone.

I'll be there...



...just for YOU.

Me Back Again

It's been so long I think since my last post.

Well, laziness has taken over me.

So, I don't really update my blog regularly.

There's a lot to tell but I just wanna keep things short and simple.

It's Monday again.

So, I started of with my part-time job as usual last week.

Nothing interesting coz basically it's the same old boring job.

Gotta put up with it.



People having problem with Monday...

Well, I am too!!!

I've consumed like more than ten cups of coffee today to stay awake.

And now, it has no effect on me anymore.

Now, it's time to go HOME, I guess.

So, good bye!!!!




(p/s: This post means nothing rite? Nothing to talk about as well... Haiya..)

It was a wake-up call for me… sort of…

One night, she SMS-ed me asking,

“Do you miss me?”

And I replied,

“Not that much..”

After a while, it came to my mind what I really feel for her now.

It was difficult to explain coz I really don’t know.

But seriously…


I feel nothing.


And I don’t know where that fire of love has gone.

I feel empty…

I feel like we don’t know each other…

Apart from that, I’m stucked with my no-west-Malaysian marriage policy produced by some people in my family.

I’m torn between her and my family.

I don’t even know what to write…

I’m way too young for all these craps!!!

Gosh!!! I hate it!!!

Another Sleepless Nite..

Seriously, I'm tired after driving for 8 hours from UUM to Tapah and Tapah to UUM.

I went there to attend the wedding's ceremony for Along which the brother of my beloved friend.

Congrats Along and Kak Intan. Me and Miss Penguin attended the wedding.



I reached UUM at 11 p.m and I was lying on the bed.

After a few gestures, I realise that I was having the inability to sleep.

So, I decided to pack some of my things before sending it to UUM.

It was so MESSY on my bed. Gosh!!!

Arghhh!!! Malasnye nak membasuh!!!

Wut Happened La???

It's 3 a.m and I still couldn't sleep.

I did all the stuffs that I could make just to arouse the inner feeling of drowsiness.



I try to think about all the good times with my nephews.

Didn't work.

I went to have another bath coz I thought it was just too hot here in my room.

Didn't work.

And now, I'm watching "How I Met Your Mother" but also...

...didn't work.



Oh GOD!!!

I need sleep.

I had just finished my exam and I'm terribly in need of sleep.

I NEED SLEEP!!!

My terrible face at this hour!!!